I got on the scale this am and tried to weigh. First I had to remove Diesel the black cat from the bathroom. He kept trying to hop on the scales with me. That is all that I need...extra cat weight. I lost 2lbs and that makes me happy!
I went to the store to get my groceries for the week. I get to the frozen section and think * I am going to get a small thing of ice cream to celebrate.*. Put it in my basket and keep pushing on. I like to mix plain vanilla with lots of cinnamon and refreeze it.
Then it hits me....I am buying BLUE BELL ICE CREAM to celebrate LOSING WEIGHT. What in the world is wrong with me?!?!?!!?!
To make matters even worse......I was not even hungry for it.
**Word of warning...have you ever had Blue Bell Ice Cream? If not, please don't start. It is a gateway food. You will soon find yourself at the back of your closet with the door closed and spoon in hand hiding from your family so you do not have to share.
I am finding it hard to retrain my brain not to think of food as a reward or a friend.
I have never caught myself thinking *It has been a GREAT day and I am going to celebrate it with cabbage!*. In fact, if I did, I would know that I had completely lost my mind.
I remember when I was doing Weight Watchers, if I lost weight then I went to Chicken Express.
I am an instant gratification girl whose addiction can be satisfied by pulling into a drive thru. Because of that, I always have to stay on guard. I have to keep working on refocusing and changing my habits and my THOUGHTS.
Why do I even feel the need to reward myself? Isn't getting healthier and losing weight reward enough?
How do you reward yourself?
.....has lost 108 sticks of butter