Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Love, Compassion, Kindness and Crankypants.....


 I posted this to my facebook on Tuesday.  I intended it to be a positive push to do good.  Anything that I put on facebook in that vein is aimed at me.  Anyone else that it touches is just gravy.  I use the word *touches* in a good way and not in a *rub your fur the wrong way with both hands until electricity shoots  out of both your ears* kind of way.  Boy, was I off.  I ended up taking the entire post down, not only because of the comments but because of the private messages I was getting.  It is like people either do not really know me or were looking for things to be contrary about.   To be fair, there was way more positive than there was negative.  If you know me you know....Mindy does not like negative or controversy. 


I get enough of that in the real world without picking it up and shaking it.  I know better than to pick up snakes.

Three main issues came up.  #1 It's not true.  #2 Luck plays a big deal in all of it and #3 That is all about karma and we don't need that because of Jesus and grace.   I had some things to say on these 3 subjects so I wanted to address all of that here. 

#1 It's not true.  I believe it is.  I have lived it.  Now, something we pour our love, compassion, kindness and faith into the wrong people.  That hurts.  Especially when we KNOW not to but do it anyway.  Good will still come back....it just might not be from where we expected it.  I poured all of that into my ex (one of the things I rarely talk about lol!) and just knew that those would be appreciated and come back.  They didn't.  Instead, he poured something else into someone else and TADA a baby happened!  I was devastated.  I got angry at God and told him about it.  Today, I look back and see that him coming back would have been the worst thing in the world for myself and my children.  I got good 1000 x's back AND dodged a bullet.  So, I got good back but from unexpected places.  I also believe that if we are doing those things in a manipulative manner....it will never work.  We do not do good to get good FROM WHAT WE WANT.  We throw good out on the water knowing that, eventually it comes back to us.

#2 Luck plays a big place in it all and that there are people in other countries that do the right thing and still do not get good.  Okay, I cannot argue with that.  I can reiterate that I totally meant this on a personal level.  I do realize being born white and in the US has had a lot of advantages.  I have also worked really hard to get to where I am.  Again...personal level. My little piece of the pond.

#3  That is all about karma and we don't need that because of Jesus and grace.  Well alrighty, let's go there.  I am a Christian.  I am a Christian who has friends of all different beliefs and non-beliefs.  They love me and I love them.  I am also a Christian who is currently disillusioned with most organized religion because of how a whole lot of *christians* act.  Yes, I am so glad that I am saved by grace and have to do nothing else.  Nothing!   westboro baptist church also believes the very same thing!  Don't kid yourself, when the word Christian is used, the majority of people think of wbc or people who want to oppress others.  So, if I as a Christian think that all I SHOULD do is throw a ichthus onto my back bumper and wait for the rapture...then something is so very wrong with me and I think it grieves my Maker. We are called upon to have love, compassion, kindness and faith  each. and.every.day.  When we do those things...good will happen. One upon a time, a young man told me that I *did not act like a christian* and it blew my mind and changed forever how I processed Christianity in my own head.  He had been gay for as long as he could remember.  When he was little, he would dress in his sister's clothes.  His mom, what was a christian and took him to church every time the door was open, tried to *beat the gay out of him* with electrical cords while quoting bible verses to him.  That was his earliest memory and he thinks that he was around 4.  Real Christians have a whole lot of making up to those *christians* that have come before us and have caused so much damage.

 I want to live my life in a way so that people look at me and think *what is it that she has.....I want that*.  I do not want people to think that I love a magical Jesus in a lamp that I rub and he makes all my wishes come true.  Because, that is just not how it works and...that makes for a very tiny Jesus.

I try to use facebook and my blog (those 6 times I post a year) in a fun positive way.  I really do try to make the world a better place.  Every once in a while I will dip into my depression issues or get snarky about having a bad day.  But, all in all, I do try to use it for good and not for evil.  If I wanted controversy I would talk about:  gun rights (for...but I am not dumb enough to tote mine into target or any store), death penalty (for), abortions (against and for), gays (for), straights (for), Obama (meh), breastfeeding (for but not when the kid is old enough to ask for it), breastfeeding in public (for...it's just a boob for goodness sake), women's rights (for), marriage equality (for..and do NOT say that it is a Christian thing because we let EVERYONE else get married),  spay and neutering (FOR!!!), assisted suicide (for), lottery (against),  RAKs (for), animal testing (against), spanking (did it),  sports player's  pay (WAY too much), teacher's pay (we cannot pay them enough), Palin (against), Clinton (against), SNL (WAY better in the 80's and 90's), marijuana (against except for honest to goodness medical situations), immigration (wow, this one is tough.  We created a horrible problem in Mexico...we need to fix it.  Not sure how we need to do that.  I know people that should without a doubt be deported.  I also know others that have been a bonus to this country that should not be deported.  If it happens in another country we call them refugees....in our county we call them illegal aliens), welfare (for but oh how I would over haul the system and YES I can talk about it cause I received it once upon a time) and drug testing for welfare recipients (for....I know that there are lots of people out there on welfare that are not on drugs.  I also know that there is a large population of people that get benefits that are. I have no problem being drug tested at my job where I receive a paycheck) periods (I am so ready to be over THAT), sex education (oh HELL YES...I personally think that, a right of passage at age 13, males and females get inoculated with some sort of birth control), daylight savings time (against), proof reading (against  LOL)  and vaccinations (For! Polio....ain't no body got time for that).

Any thing else you want to know? 



...or hell, maybe I was just hormonal and y'all did not mean a thing by it ~grins~

Saturday, February 07, 2015

OMENS AND HEART ROCKS

If you are any where close to being my friend, you know that I am allergic to exercise.  ick  I was never good in PE.  I was always one of *those kids* where was picked last for dodge ball.  However, I was always called over first for Red Rover. 

 Red Rover Red Rover let Mindy come over....BLAMO...clothes lined.

I am also a slow learner.  ~winks~
                                                 Molly is not impressed by my athletic endeavors.  
 This year I am working on shining and taking care of myself.  So, I am walking.  Not fast....but walking.  I would be the tortoise in the story.  So February is here and I put on my fabulous kicks that Kim got me for Christmas year before last and off I go.  Seriously, these are the most amazing shoes that I have ever owned.  I have also enhanced their bedazzled selves with adding wings that I got in Vegas.

I am sure I am quite the sight on the walking trail.  

So here I go, MAKING myself start out on the trail.  I turn on the walking app on my phone and throw my sunglasses on.  Muttering under my breath all the time.  I had barely gotten started when I happened to look down on the trail and, LO AND BEHOLD, there is a heart rock.

All of you know about my love of all things heart rocks.  Several of you have sent me rocks from all over.  I was lucky enough to find my first at the Pacific Ocean.  But, never EVER have I found one in Plainview Texas.  

I did not slow down.  I just swooped it up and plopped it into my pocket. That tiny little rock changed my attitude about that walk.  I looked at it as a good omen.  There were good things ahead of me so....forward I went.  I stopped looking at the ground, put a smile on my face and kept that little rock in my pocket.  Occasionally I would put my hand in my pocket and put that rock into my palm.  
I think I can....I think I can....I think I can.....
 Walk I did.  That first day I did a little over 2 and 1/2 miles.  Big for my standards.  I got into my car and had to wait a few minutes until I could feel my legs again so that I could work the clutch.

Why yes, I do drive a standard.  ~grins~

So, anyway, I am sitting there trying to feel my legs and think....oh!  I will post a picture of the heart rock!!  I take off my sunglasses, pull the rock out of my pocket and see that my good omen....my inspiration..... 

is a piece of children's heart shaped cereal snack.

                                                    *BLINK BLINK BLINK*

Well,  of course it is.

I sat there all sweaty and not feeling body parts and just laughed at myself.  I was getting my inspiration from carbs.

Then I think, I have GOT to blog about this!  Brought my heart rock cereal snack home and put it on my dresser to get a good picture.  I turn around to get my camera and 

                CRUNCH CRUNCH CRUNCH CRUNCH CRUNCH

Diseal ATE my inspiration. 

                                                 Diesel...no guilt...no shame.  That's how he rolls.
 

..........Whose hates excercise but does not mind laughing at herself.

Saturday, January 31, 2015

STATE OF THE MINDY ADDRESS

I am not big on resolutions anymore.  I am, however, big on goals and themes.  The theme for 2015 is Shine.  I am not exactly how I am going to do that but I bet I figure it out. 

I decided to keep my goals open even though some of them are fairly large for me.  I am going to need your help for some of them.
This year I will: blog, travel (I see Washington, Canada, New Mexico and San Antonio in my future), lose weight ( I by no means want to be stick skinny, just healthy) , breast reduction (I am tired of my back hurting all of the time and think that the Russian Peasant Woman look is so 2014)  organize room by room, finally make my studio real and....shine.

January:

*Eat healthier:  I have done better with this.   I am working on eating according to my blood type.  It is more of a paleo kind of thing.  You know my love affair with bacon so this is not really hard for me.   Win

*Answer and return phone calls.  One a scale of 1 to 100, I love bacon at a 110 and answering the phone at a -13.  I have gotten WAY better at this!  I would still rather you text me or send me a message on facebook.  ~grins~ Win

*Clean out the man cave.  This one will not get finished this month.  It is about halfway done.  GGGGRRRRR   I have a big ass couch in there I am going to set free but cannot until someone can come and get it.  Give me another week.     Man Cave---semi fail

*Blog 2 times a month.  ~snorts~  Well, here it is the LAST day of the month and this is my FIRST blog post so....yeah...        Fail

*Mail something at least once a week.  THIS I am good at!  I have mailed out more than once a week and plan on getting better and better.  WIN WIN!

I do not know if it is this way for everyone but, the older I get, the more I want to do.... The more I want to taste.   I also know that no one is going to spoon feed me.
 Molly is not impressed by any stinking list....just turn out the dang light and go nite nite.


 .....this little light of mine....you know you know

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Even A Princess Has A Few Hiccups



 Regrets, I've had a few;  But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do  And saw it through without exception. 

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew  When I bit off more than I could chew.  But through it all, when there was doubt,

                     I did it my way".  ~Frank Sinatra



I am who I am because of my choices and the choices of those around me (*spits* damned free will) have made me who I am today. There are a lot of times along the way that I have stumbled and fallen flat on my face.   For those of you who really know me, I am pretty damned okay with who, what and where I am. Now,  I tend to think of myself as THE last piece of pie.  So, when I got to thinking about what regrets in my life I might have....it was not easy.  Sure we all have those silly little regrets like bad clothing choices (I had an awesome pair of MC Hammer pants that I wore when I was pregnant with Cade...glad that there are no pics!), hair styles and bad dates (he had a black shirt on with food stains down the front...and told me that he was going to convert me to the Church of Christ before the end of the date....why oh why did I even get in the car.  And no, still not Church of Christ).



1) Not letting my grandmother teach me how to sew.  I love it now even though I do not sit down and do enough of it.  The sounds of the machine, the feel of the fabric and removing Diesel from where I am cutting feels like therapy to me.  Maw's scissors holders hang on my wall and now hold my scissors.  I have a piece of green velvety fabric that I use off of every once in awhile.  I love to put little pieces of her into things.  I think that she would like to see that I am sewing now.


2)  Hanging on to people for too long.  I get a picture of how things are SUPPOSED to be in my head and hang on to people long after I should have let them go.  I see people for who and what they are capable of....not who they are in real life sometimes.  I have come to realize that some people really are just in your life for a season.  Either for your sake or for theirs.  Letting them go can be beneficial for both of you.  There are lessons to learn and lessons are not a bad thing.  That was really hard for me to learn because I can become addicted to people.


3)  Not writing more.  I sucked at the 31 days thing.  I tend to get discouraged when people do not hit that like button or comment.  Plus, I got to feeling like it was a throwing my blog in your face kind of thing every day.  I did not like that.   I lose site of the fact that my blog truly is for me...just me.  Anyone that comes along is just gravy.  Writing really does help me sort things out and I need to just make a point to write more often.  Might I say that my sister group stuck with me and I am thankful for that.  *waves at the tribe*


4)  Being afraid for so long.  I know it is hard for some of you to believe but, I was once VERY shy and afraid.  The Mindy you see now did not even exist in the mind of 16, 21 or even 31 year old Mindy.  I can look back and see that I have wasted a whole lot of time in being fearful and ashamed.  I let a lot of people talk me in to things and control my life due to fear.  There was nothing to be ashamed or afraid of.  But, once those things attach to you, they become like those *friends* in school that liked you and let them sit with you only because you had the good things in your lunch box.  Sure, not a lot of women can say they married the same man two different times and be proud of it but....those two times brought about the great things that I have ever accomplished.  I even thing I kinda rocked being a single parent.  Not to say I did not make my mistakes but....we all turned out just fine.  No ax murders in our gang of three.  Or, they are good enough at it that they have never been caught.  I do hate that my children remember that mom who was scared.  I still have some fear but now I see it as a more healthy fear.


5)  Not traveling more before now.  Man, you give me a plane ticket and I am so out of here!  I regret not having that spirit when I was younger.  I recognize it now and I am going to take every opportunity to see the big wide world and meet so many people that I already care for and love.  I even love that I have totally stopped packing in a bag big enough to hide a body in!  My little carry on and me are great friends.  It's wheels and I have been in several airports and plan on being in several more.  My regret with that is that I have not picked up a City themed coffee cup in each one.  But I am certainly going to start.  I think I need a gofundme account for traveling.  HA!


6)  My latest regret.....Not riding the roller coaster at New York New York.  I was going to do it on my birthday.  I mean...what a flipping awesome way to start out my 52nd year right?!?!!?  Talked about it for days....watched it!  Sent a post cards to my boys telling them I did it.  But....I didn't.  We decided to ride it at night.  Prefect right?!?!?!?  Watched people get off of it and noticed that they did not die.  I chicken out in line.  Flat ass chicken out and bolted.  I have regretted it every day since.  I am the girl with the *So she did* tat....not the so she didn't.  So, I have to go back to Vegas and not die on the roller coaster at New York New York.   I hope that there are pictures cause I am sure going to post them.  Or have Camille post them if I die. *winks*

.....I showed you mine...now show me yours....












Thursday, October 09, 2014

Thursday Thankfulness




 I have so very much that I am thankful for but, it's late....so I'll keep this list short.

  1. I am thankful for Camille who still likes to include me in her life and lets me hang out with her and her friends.
  2. I am thankful for Cade and his ability to tease with me.  But, I still will not let him sit on my couch while he is naked.
  3. That both of my kids love to say I love you and tell me every day.
  4. A savings account
  5. A new adventure
  6. Airplanes.  I would not have been a good covered wagon passenger.  Seriously, they would have left me behind with the first armoire.
  7. Doggy doors
  8. Early birthday gifts
  9. 51
  10. October
  11. Creamer
  12. Clean panties
  13. Foam roller core.  OMG...seriously, have you tried one?  You MUST!!
  14. Photos
  15. You
 And so...what about you?  What are the little things that make your heart go aaaahhhhhhh?



Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Lions and Boys and Deer Oh My!



Over the summer, the boys and I took a trip to Clarendon.  I took them there in order to meet up with their other grandmother, Grams, to go camping.  If you have ever traveled with littles, you know that there is never a dull moment.

We all go out the front door and Joey yells *Front seat!*.  He is the only one old enough to ride in the front seat so front seat it is!  Jarrod and Vinny call backseat.  Well...since there is only 2 of you left YES you MAY ride in the back seat.  We all buckle up.  Joey falls asleep before we are out of the drive and we are OFF!

Everything is going good and the do not touch your brother is at a minimum.

We start the descent through the back side of Palo Duro Canyon going about 50mph and that is where I made my mistake.  I KNEW I was making it the moment I opened my mouth.  My brain was slowly saying in its best bionic man slow motion nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooooooo but, my mouth, it just kept talking.

Me:  *Look guys!  Look at that deer.*  I pointed to the dear as we drove past it.

Now I have been the mother of littles.  I learned a long time ago that you either 1) do NOT point things out when driving in a car or 2) point things out about 6 miles ahead of time, slow down to 4 miles an hour and say there...there...look there...no right over there where my finger is pointing no stop that look there just forget it. 

Both boys crane their necks looking out the windows of the OPPOSITE SIDE from the direction that I was pointing. 

Joey's head is still rolling around from side to side snoring.  He is only upright because of his seat belt.  He missed the whole thing but he did not care.  If he HAD been awake, the next 27 miles would have been filled with fun facts about how deer 1) are a part of the cervidae family  2) have hoofs with ever numbers of toes and 3) are the only animals with antlers and antlers are the fastest growing living tissue.  I love all my grands but Joey is the one I will use as my phone a friend if I ever get picked for Who Wants To Be a Millionaire. 

The two in the back:   *I don't see a deer!*

Me:  *You should have looked faster and in the direction that I was pointing.*

Vinny:  *Why can't I see a deer?  Turn around!*

Me:  *Momdy can't.  Sorry the deer is gone.*

Vinny:  *aaahhh man.*

Jarrod:  *I don't think that there was really a deer.*

Me:  *Dude, there was too a deer!*

Jarrod:  *Just because you SAID that there was a deer doesn't mean that there was one.*  I look back into my rear view to see him grinning.

Vinny:  *Oh man....~sighs~  I have always wanted to see a deer.*

We drive on a few more miles and then Jarrod looks at the window and screeches

*I SAW A MOUNTAIN LOIN!!*

Vinny:  *Where?  Where?  I want to see the mountain lion!*

Jarrod pointing frantically at NOTHING *Over there over there look quick!  Slow down Momdy*

Vinny:  *SLOW DOWN MOMDY!  I have ALWAYS wanted to see a mountain lion my whole entire life!*

Jarrod:  *It's gone.  She's driving too fast.*

Vinny ~wailing loudly~ * I never get to see mountain lions!! That is ALL I have wanted to do for my entire life!  I never get to!*

Joey:  *ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ*

Me:  *Vinny, there is no mountain lion.  Jarrod is teasing you.  Jarrod stop that.*

Jarrod is smiling really big in the back seat.

I see a wild pig.  I say nothing.


I see another deer.  I say nothing.

I could have seen Big Foot at that point and I would not have said a word.

We go miles in silence.  Blessed sweet peaceful silence.

Jarrod:  *Did I ever tell you about the time that I petted a mountain lion?*

Vinny in a frenzy:  *WHERE WAS I?  WHERE WAS I?  My whole entire life all I have ever wanted to do was pet a mountain lion!!  Why do you get to have all the fun?  Why did you get to and I didn't?  Why? That is all I have ever wanted to do...pet a mountain lion!* 

Jarrod:  *We just left you at home and went and petted it.  I think I see one over....*

Me catching Jarrod's eyes in the rear view *DON'T.YOU.DARE.*  He just smiles his sweet smile.

Joey:  *ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ*



......Momdy has never petted a mountain lion either