Rachel and I had a talk the other day about scrapbookers and junior league soccer moms. The conversation actually started a couple of months ago when we were invited to a woman group pajama party at a church promising plenty of chocolate and pillow fights! ~sounds like some really bizarre porn does it not?~ The conversation that day ended with me telling her that, if I had not gotten divorced...I may just have BECOME one of those women.
I find my mind going back to that last sentence and wondering what if? What if the marriage had worked? What if I had gone to college right out of high school? What if I had turned left instead of right?
Would I be some drama teacher getting her students ready for UIL? Would I be that stay at home mom with the mini-van heading up the local chapter of the PTA? Would I have been a women of passion? A mover and a shaker?
Don't get me wrong, I love this life that I have. I have a sweet sweet life and I am totally aware of it. I am not sad or maudlin at all. I am not even looking for comments filled with praise and atta girls! My head knows that everything is alright. It really is alright.
I just feel like I woke up this morning and I am not really for sure who I am. Like someone jumped into my body while I slept last night. I am just curious as to who Mindy was originally supposed to be? Who could she have been along the way? Did I miss anything?
Maybe this is a fork in the road and I am about to leap into a great adventure.....
Then again, maybe this is just my brain working hard to close some chapters on a book that I was not really interested in anyway.
MINDY....who promises no scrapbooks or soccer moms were harmed during the posting of this blog....