Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Self Portrait

Why yes I am getting a hair cut this afternoon! How did you know???

I bet you would be surprised to find out I have never had any formal training either!! Really...I haven't!! Yes it is just raw natural talent! I surprise even myself~ *blink blink*

I dare you to draw your own self portrait and post it!! I do! I double dog dare ya!

Monday, February 25, 2008


I am not sure why but I just love this pic. I guess it is just me and my weird sense of humor. All of the other cows were all bawling or running around being excited thinking that I was going to feed them. But not this cow....

She was very very curious.....

My note from the Universe today is this:

If you knew just how scared most people are, Melinda, you'd be even braver.

How freaky is that after my last post??
So, if you were a cow....what would you look like?


I made an offhand remark to babygator about wanting to start kinda sorta looking for a house to buy. Bebo is convinced that we will never move from the apartment that forbids pets while he is living there. He just knows that I am moving the day after he moves out and that I have already placed an order with Arks R Us to deliver about 11 70dy animals to the new house.

I know better than to tell babygator things like that. Within about 20 seconds, she had called the lady that helped her with financing on her own home and had hooked me up.

I now am pre-approved for a home loan.

This scare the bagibbers out of me in more ways than one. This is where the crazy part comes in.

I am consumed with the thought that buying my own house means that I am giving up on love.

There....I said it out loud. I never promised you that I was sane now did I???

My head has knowledge and it truly knows that my irrational thoughts are just that...irrational thoughts. My head knows that it is ROCKIN that I am able to do that as a single parent!! That I have put myself financially at a place where I can afford to do that. A few years ago I was in a bind financially and used Consumer Credit to help me budget and get my head back above water. I paid off ALL of my debts except for my CRV about 10 months ago. The CRV will be totally paid off in a few months. There is money in the bank! My head knows all about God providing and God's timing. And just my 2 cents...anyone that actually tells you that in the midst of pain should be shot in my humble opinion.

My heart...well it is making me weep. If you had told me when the ex left that I would raise my children without a mate and would be alone for 15 years....I would have probably given up right then and there.

Imagine Mindy with a DQ outfit on saying *That will be a Hunger Buster with cheese cut the onions, extra pickles. Would you like fries with that?*

Yes, I do have my two children that I love fiercely and that make me *not alone* but there is still an aloneness. It is not the same as having a mate. And I am not talking about just settling for settlings sake....I want the right person.

In my mind, I always thought that he was just around the corner. Going to spring out at anytime and announce that he had come to sweep my off my feet. Well, the years go buy and I keep getting heavier and it is going to be harder for him to do the sweeping. I don't think he is coming. I never dreamed that this is something that I would do without a partner. I wanted someone to turn to and say *hhhmmm....well what do you think about _______________?* Instead, I turn and there is no one there. So I am making this decision on my own and it is almost as scary as the clowns. I am tired of making the big decisions on my own.

So dear friends, it looks as though Mindy is going house hunting.

I know what I should be thinking. I know that I should be just as excited as Drew Carey calling my name on the Price Is Right but I am almost paralyzed with these irrational thoughts.

Please do not mistake this for a pitiful me post. I am just struggling with all of these thoughts and am laying it out there for you to help me make some sense out of everything.

Any suggestions?

Sunday, February 24, 2008


Guess just who in the world turned 26 today!!! No, it is not me! It is my babygator!! My beautiful, wonderful, kick-a** babygator. My precious girl at the Horn-B game ranch.

Her first day of school.

Is that not just the sweetest little face??

I went to the hospital at 4:30am on February 24, 1982. She was born at 6:04am. She entered the world fast and that is how so continues to this day.

Why no...she has never been patient. How did you know???

Happy Birthday Babygator! Your Mommygator loves you this manies.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008


As usual, I am behind on lots of things!! Gonna try to tie up some loose ends with a list.

1. Pantypalooza went wonderfully! Thank you all so much! I appreciated all who participated in some form or fashion. I am also thankful for all of your comments and for those of you who took the time to go and read the article.

2. I got a Valentine package from KD Lang ~grins and looks over at swandive~ I wonder how in the world KD got my address! And she left me the sweetest online Valentine!!

3. I have tended to be a little loud to people over the last few days. I have been screeching phrases such as *then just STOP* , *it is YOUR choice*, and *they cannot PLAY if you do not PLAY with them!!* and my favorite:

Me: *If he is threatening your life then you need to IMMEDIATELY call the police*

Her: *Really, well what if I have done something to make him mad?*

Me: *I do not care what you have done. NO ONE should ever threaten you!!*

Her: *~sighs~ oh alright...what is the number for the police?*

Me *~blink blink~ 911!!!!

4. They have ALL BEEN LIKE THAT!!

5. Oh this is going to be such a boring blog post...are you all still with me?

6. Contact me immediately if you did not receive anything from your swap partner. That should all be completed by now.

7. I got the most delicious candy from Judy!!

8. Then Zorra tagged me for this book meme list 15 years ago and I am just now getting around to it!! Bet I am not her BFF right now!

Pick up the nearest book of 123 pages or more.

(No cheating!) Dang it....I am at work so this will be really boring.

Find Page 123. Got it

Find the first 5 sentences: Controlling Behavior-Both the dependant person and the co-dependant person use many controlling tactics in their relationship. The chemically dependant person will often use anger, threats, and pleading promises to keep a spouse in a dependant relationship while the co-dependant person will unwittingly use enabling behaviors which will keep the dependant person both dependant on the *chemical of choice* and dependant on the spouse. After all, the spouse was conditioned by those rules of control. Enabling Behavior- the co-dependant, in order to protect the family, will do the following *enabling* behaviors out of fear of abandonment and fear that the family will come apart.

I am stopping there now. I am supposed to tag 5 people. I think I am the last person in blog world to do this so I do not know of anyone to tag!!

9. What ever happened to that game we played? The game where we left comments pretending to remember memories of the best time we never had together? I wanna play that game again!!

10. So what do you know today?

Thursday, February 14, 2008


The article is out! You can click on the link and it will take you to the online newspaper. The article is under *Crisis center mentions need for unmentionables 02-14-2008 *. The photo is on the front page. The photos on the online page scroll so give it a minute and then you will see me!! I am the one in PINK!!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008


OMG! My local paper has picked up pantipalooza and is going to run an article on it in tomorrow's newspaper!! pppsssttt......they sent a woman reporter over because the male reporter did not want to ask me about panties. ~snickers~

Just think of what good can come of this! Just think of who might actually go out and do something nice for someone else! Just think of how far YOU...YOU my dear wonderful sweet readers have TAKEN THIS!!

Do you want to know how far? Do you really? In checking back through my records for the last 2 years, I discovered that pantipalooza has been celebrated in 16 states and 4 countries. Is that not awesome?!?!?!?!

What would I DO without all you wonderful people???


I am off to buy more panties!!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Brought to you by the number 2.....




~wonders if having online Valentines is anything like having an imaginary friend~

Monday, February 11, 2008


Come one come is that time of year again! Time for the THIRD annual Pantipalooza!!! The last two year's paloozas were wonderful and I think it will be that much bigger this year! Remember....everyone can play and you can adapt the palooza to how you see fit. It is NOT restricted to just panties. Last year it included scarfs, shoes, diapers, toiletries and many other things.On my thankfulness list, I always list panties. They really are such a blessing. Most of us have washers and dryers so we always have a fresh clean supply of panties. If not, most of us can hit the nearest Wally World and pick us up a pair! But, there are some women in our lives that do not have that option...that blessing. For some reason or other, life has been hard on them. Be it abuse, poverty, hurricanes or it it up to us to make a difference!This is what I wrote last year and I think it sums up what I am trying to say:

***I called our local Crisis Center and talked to some of the counselors there. If you decide to do that, please remember that there may be some questions that they cannot answer due to confidentially laws. They told me, on average, how many women are at the safe house at any given time. I explained to them what I was sort of looking at doing. They explained to me that they get things donated such as shampoo and lotion but it is usually the generic stuff. They suggested body sprays or lotions that smell nice. I will put those things on my list to pick up. I am also donating...PANTIES!! They told me that they can always use panties at the Shelter in all shapes and sizes. If not a shelter, other suggestions would be just asking around and finding one woman to zero in on. This is a hard holiday for a lot of people for many different reasons. Singles, widows, divorcees and couples having problems would just be a place to start. You are all very creative people and I just know that you will find the perfect person to touch.What about the chick that always checks out your groceries? Why not hand her a gift certificate for a pedicure? A Valentine left on the windshield of a teacher that explains that, not only are they appreciated but WHY they are appreciated. A Sonic card, McDonald's certificates, an offer to baby sit for one evening, an oil change certificate.....Come on! Put on your thinking caps and let me know what you come up with!***

The outpouring over the last two years has been wonderful! I took the advise of one of the woman at the crisis center and am donating panties in my size...that way I am helping some woman that is a lot like me. If you decide to participate, please leave me a comment!! I want to know how far this reaches. Also, feel free to steal the idea and put it on your blog.....only good can come of it!

Go check Sue out! She has already played!!


**Any woman who sews or knits or weaves blends colors in a tapestry or creates a patchwork quilt, knows by the feel that a single thread is weak. But the weaving, the blending, the intertwining with many others makes it strong. Any woman alone without friends to sustain her, to nurture and support, to hold with loving arms, like a single thread is weak. But the weaving, the loving, the nurturing of others, the networks of friendships make her strong.** Barbara 1994 The Kinship of Women

Friday, February 08, 2008


Okay! Time is up! Today is that day to mail out your Valentine and Candy to your partner if you have not already done so!!

I also have up a Valentine box! ~points over to the left of the blog~ You can click on the box and leave me an online Valentine. I can see how many Valentine's that have been left for me but I they will not be visible to me until Valentine's day. How cool is that?!?!?! Feel free to get your own. Just let me know and I will run over and leave you a Valentine too!

*snickers* I posted this once and then realized that my title was *Male Call*

Thursday, February 07, 2008


I am SO tired of hearing about Brittney, J Lo and Angelina. Really people, get over it.....let's worry about REAL things!! There are important issues out there in front of us people and we are doing nothing!

Case in point:

Abuse by a clown on national TV.


Just look how that clown subtly threatens the child when he pulls that white balloon out of his pocket. ~shudders~

It is rumored that this baby has not been seen since the airing of this commercial during the Super Bowl.

Stinkin' clowns. ~spits~

Monday, February 04, 2008


You know how much Bebo and I love the Super Bowl. For several years now, he and I have had our own Super Bowl party. We started it when he was little. Man that kid is into some football! And gosh knows it comes natural cause he sure did not learn it from me! Each year we take great joy in planning out our party menu and watching the game. I always get the default team. He picks and I get the left over. I blogged about one of our prior SB parties here.

So before the game started, I got some toe nail painting time in. You still have to be girly even if watching a football game.

We made sausage balls and put them into the crockpot to keep warm.

We had ordered the Super Bowl popcorn package from Dale and Thomas and it came with this nifty glass bowl that can be used for future SB parties.

Doesn't that look so yummy?!?!?!?

We iced down our drinks so they would be cold cold cold thoughout the party.

Love those colors.

Brought out and filled the football shaped chip and dip platter. Bebo made a new bacon dip that was really good. Actually, you could put bacon on a piece of plastic and I bet I would eat it.

The chips are made at one of our local grocery store and they are to die for! The spices make the chips look like they have a great sprayed on tan.

Our new recipe this year was for homemade buffalo wings with a tangy bar b que sauce. We tend to like chicken without the bones so we used chicken strips.

The table is all set up and ready for the munching during the game. We each have our team that we are rooting for and are excited for the game to begin.

I look over at Bebo during the 2nd quarter. He has been really really quite and that is not like him AT ALL during a football game. There has been no traveling back and forth to the table of delights.

He looked up at me from his place on the couch and said, *I don't feel so good*.

Yep, Bebo now has the crud. He went to school this am but came home at 10:30. The school called later this afternoon to tell me that they are cancelling school tomorrow. Too many students and teachers are out sick.

We now have lots of snack food wrapped up and put into the freezer.

My team won.

But it is really hard to gloat when you opponent looks like this.