Friday, October 28, 2005
Thursday, October 27, 2005
BeBo left the door on his side of the car ajar. Therefore, no battery juice this morning. We scrambled and both got rides.
What am I thankful for right this very minute?
1. That I do have a vehicle that runs (when juiced up), gets good gas mileage and can easily be charged up.
2. Friends that let you call them early and then come and pick you up.
3. A co-worker that goes out to get lunch each day and calls to see if you want something to eat. That will come in handy today.
4. A daughter that is working this area today so I can get that battery charged.
5. High speed internet.
6. A good job that I love coming to. A job where we can all laugh together and *get* one another.
7. People who will laugh with me.
8. Clean panties.
9. A beautiful morning.
10. My own desk and my own office that is just *me*.
EDITED AT 12:50PM TO ADD:
13. The Wal Mart brand of Dayquil which gives me a sweet little buzz.
14. My own booster cables.
15. And the smarts to use my own booster cables.
16. A running car!!!
So, what are you thankful for right this minute?
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
October has always been my favorite month of the year. I love the fall. I love the briskness that comes with this month. It is chilly in the mornings and my feet touch the floor. I love bundling up for the football games. I love the warmth of the electric blanket while my nose and cheeks are cold. I love my birthday being in this month. I wonder if it would still be my favorite month if my birthday was at any other time. I love having a birthday. Getting older does not bother me at all. It is harder for me when Baby Gator.
This year, October has been different for me. It started off unseasonably hot. I hate that. It gave a un-natural feel to this time of year for me. I have had a hard time this month for some reason. I seem to either be stuck in slow motion or in get it done immediately mode. My bed has not been made all month. My kitchen table is overflowing with crafts. My refridgerator died on October 12th. May it rest in peace. The new one delivered to me on my birthday. It makes ICE!! I was able to pay for it in cash. That is a very sweet thing.
Then the plague started. It began while I was watching TV. I SAW a little mouse run across the floor. BeBo did not believe me. The HE saw a little mouse run across the floor. We set the traps the next day. We have now offered up 6 little mouse bodies to the great Sacrificial Mouse so that the plague will freaking stop!! I will let your little gray people go if you just STOP THIS INSANITY.
For once in my life, I am looking forward to November to coming.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Friday, October 07, 2005
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Leave your name and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll try to say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST.
Okay...who wants to play with me??
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
It is official....at 1:45 pm central time, I no longer have any children in my household. Only a teen.
Today Be Bo turns 13 years old!! I wish that you all could know him. He is a very sweet spirited person. We call him the good will ambassador of sports. That competitive thing just really has not caught on with him yet. Right now, he wants to be teacher. He will rock at that. Both of my children have different strong suits and talents. At times, they are as different as night and day. Yet I have a fierce love for both of them. I can remember being terrified the entire time that I was carrying him. I just KNEW that I could not love another child as much as I love baby gator. But I was wrong.
Both of my children have the same father. Yet they were born from 2 different marriages. I remarried my ex several years after we had divorced. That is another story that I am working on. When we remarried, it was a wonderful time for gator and I. I did not have to work. I was able to be a stay at home mom and a room mother. I really did not want to have another child. I said it was because things were good just the way that they were. Looking back now, I am sure that my spirit knew or suspected something that I did not want to see.
It took me almost a year to become pregnant. It was discovered that I had problems with my thyroid. After they fixed that, I got pregnant almost immediately. The planning for this new little one went forward. Gator just knew that she was having a baby sister and was so excited. In April of 1992, we all 3 went for the sonogram. I still have the video of the actual sonogram. The Doctor pressed his wand against my tummy ...Round and round he went with that thing. Finally he stopped and said those words that I will always remember, *There it is...A little son shine!*. We were ecstatic. Gator's little face fell. I can vividly remember my parents calling her on the phone and singing "You're going to have a brother!". I also remember her hanging up on them. I went home that day thinking that all was wonderful with the world and that I had accomplished some great feat. You see, there was not one male child in that family to carry on the name....Not one except the one that I was carrying.
The months go by and October arrived. My parents had come for the weekend. I can remember them all walking the pregnant woman. I was huge! My due date was still 2 weeks away. We went around the block a million times just knowing that this baby was ready to be born. I had some very strong contractions and we finally decided to go to the hospital. Once there, we were able to watch "The Comish" before they sent me home. I had a doctors appointment that Monday and my parents decided to stay and see what happened.
I had a 10:00 am doctor appointment. Once there, he asked if I was ready to have the baby. He did not have to ask me twice. Off we go to get ready for Be Bo to come into the world. They got me into that bed and nicked my water bag to get things started. That is where things took a turn for the worse. The nurse said "This will not hurt...You may feel a slight pressure.......Oh no." Word of advice here to anyone about to enter the nursing field. Please do not say *oh no* to a pregnant woman whose legs are up in the air. Meconium came rushing out with the water. She explained what was happening and that they would have to hurry everything along. My Daddy took Gator out to get some lunch. My Mom got ready to leave and I asked her to stay. For those that do not know my Mom, trust me....That was not her thing. She stayed for me. The doctor came in and they put something into my IV and the contractions kicked up about 10,000 degrees. He introduced my naked self to another man that came running into the room. I remember thinking that it must be really windy outside cause that man's hair was all over the place. Later I found out that he was an emergency pediatrician that was called in strictly to work on my son. I also later found out that there was a helicopter waiting to airlift Be Bo to a Dallas hospital if the need arose.
My Mom held one leg and my ex held another and I pushed. Out he came all swollen and big.
They whisked him away without even holding him still for a moment so that I could look at him. I whispered, "I just want to hear him cry. Please make him cry.". The nurse that had helped me though all of the labor leaned over an whispered, "Oh honey, we do not want him to cry until they can clean out his mouth and throat and have made sure that it is safe for him.". The love for that child that I had not even heard cry came rushing into my heart. Then, he cried. The most beautiful sound that I have ever heard.
One month later to the day, my ex walked out.
My Mother is now so very glad that she was there when he was born. She is able to tell him the story of his birth.
My Father has been the stong male influence in his life and drives a bizillion miles with high gas prices to be at each and every game that Be Bo plays in.
His Sister adores him. She fights with him and thinks that he is horrible at times. (She even knocked him over when we were playing putt putt the other day!) However, she loves him fiercely and will go out of her way to protect him.
And for me, I love this child. My second born with a golden retriever personality. I cannot imagine my life without him in it.
Someday, I will tell you the story of how he saved my life.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
It was a dark and stormy night......eerrrmmm....no I think that is how a bad Harlequin romance story starts.
It would have been in February 1996. I would have been 33 years old and just months away from graduating from college. When my divorce happened, I was able to go to college. I was able to get my BA in 3 years. By doing that, I worked my proverbial tail off and took classes that pertained to my major and classes that would help that major. No room for fun because I had to get it done and get out of there. My last semester I was stuck with three 8:00 am classes and two night classes. I was driving about 75 miles to school and 75 miles from school. This schedule left a gap in my afternoons with nothing to do but study. My advisor told me that I needed a class in the afternoons that I could just do and not have to think about. That is how I ended up in art class. Now, for those of you that know me, I am a crafter. I am not an artist. This class allowed you to pick 6 different mediums to work in and to turn in for a grade. I loved the class and wished that I had taken some classes like it earlier. It allowed me to have a place to go in the afternoons and study or work on projects. It also allowed me to be close to artist types. I adore people like that and enjoyed being in their company. There were several different rooms that people worked in and no one minded who came and went.
I was working in the clay room. Smashing, rolling and making my clay warm and pliable when I realized that someone kept walking back and forth by the door. I looked up and saw a beautiful young man with long blonde hair. I am a sucker for men with pretty long hair. He smiled...I smiled....and then I went back to work. He walked back past the door....He smiled...I smiled...Then I went back to work. It took about 5 times of him doing that before it dawned on me that HE WAS FLIRTING WITH ME!! I guess that it had been so long since I had been flirted with that I forgot how it actually worked and did not recognize it when I saw it. He eventually came into the room and sat across from me and we talked. And talked. And talked. He was 20 years old and working on his degree. He was an assistant for one of the art teachers. He told me about his life and his art. He never asked my age. It was a sweet afternoon. It came time for me to leave and he walked outside with me. It was still very cold and it had turned windy. I was wearing a jacket that had a light hood attached. The hood had gotten tangled up inside of itself. He said, "Wait just a minute and let me fix that.". I turned to face him and his hands reached out on either side of my head and he straightened the hood. Then, he placed his hands gently on either side of my face and leaned in and kissed me. I melted into a kiss that I was not expecting. The wind blew his hair around me and I felt hidden in a secret place. His lips were so soft and the kiss was so sweet. It was a movie perfect kiss. I felt like, for one split second, time stood still and we were the only two people in the world. He then stepped back and smiled at me and we turned and went our separate ways. I never saw him again.
I had never in my entire life been kissed like that. I have also never been kissed like that since.
Monday, October 03, 2005
[ ] I've run away from home.
 I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ X] I shut others out when I'm sad. (Sometimes)
[X ] I open up to others easily.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world. (Just a few people know)
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an I-Pod.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
 I don't kill bugs.
 I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[X ] I own something from Abercrombie. (Only cause it was $2.00 at the thrift store)
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with someone.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious. [Not as much as I used to be.]
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ X] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
 I have many scars. [Definitely, I'm a klutz, except when I play basketball.]
[x] I've been out of this country. (Once for the day when I was 13 to Mexico)
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
 I see/have seen a therapist. (X if that includes seeing a counselor a couple of times)
[X] I love chocolate. (I like chocolate...I love white chocolate)
 I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games/video games when i'm bored.
 Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star.
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas. (I have tried to get pj day started at work but the management is against it)
[x] I have kissed a stranger. (OMG...best kiss ever and I will tell you if you want to hear about it)
[x] Hugged a stranger.
 Been in a fight with the same sex.
[ ] Been arrested.
 Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose.
 Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[x] Swore at your parents. [Hell, yes, but never where they could hear me. There was alot of eyerolling too]
 Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[x] Broken a bone. [Only my little toe]
 Played spin the bottle.
[x] Gotten stitches. (not where any of you could see!)
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ X] Bitten someone. (It was good...trust me)
 Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car.
 Been to Japan.
 Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] Stole something from your job. [Nothing more than a few office supplies.]
[x] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
 Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
 Been to Europe.
 Slept with a co-worker.
[x] Been married. [Still am, but not legally....]
[ X] Gotten divorced.
[x] Saw someone dying.
 Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a plane.
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
 Eaten sushi.
 Been snowboarding.
 Been skiing.
[x] Been ice skating.
[ X] Met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] Been to a motorcross show.
[x] Gone/Going to college.
[ ] Done hard drugs.
[ ] Taken painkillers.
[ ] Cheated on someone else.
[ X] Were so bored you took this survey.
[ ] Have a tattoo (I do so want one)